Dear Als, this little life.

Hey love! Last night I woke up about 3am to my little love saying “happy birthday mom” I laughed because she’s half asleep and she’s probably dreaming. I turned to her and hugged her and she says again “happy birthday mommy” I whispered back, “thank you my lovey girl let’s get some rest” she laid her head down and me? Well I thought to myself; how lucky am I to have to wake up at 3am to cuddles from my baby girl and birthday wishes. It’s not even my birthday anymore but in her thoughts it’s so special to celebrate people she was still thinking of it.

Yesterday, your family decided to celebrate you with friends and family around and the beauty of it was after so many years of crying this year I sat in gratitude and was able to smile. There was a joy looking around as I saw the chaos of kids running and jumping all over the place, mom sharing stories, and friends interacting. “This little life of mine” I thought to myself. Shortly after I sat around a few of my mom’s friends and they started sharing stories and slowly lead to sharing experiences that would lead into advice that reminded me of how beautiful life can be.

I hear someone say something along the lines of: you have to learn to pray like this; God give me the audacity to ask you to allow me to see myself the way you see me” and i reflected on that because yes! Excuse me Mrs. Ali girl, why have you stopped seeing yourself the way the creator does? Your favorite things to admire are sun rises, sun sets and stars. You find them fascinating and they always remind you of how big your creator is. You often sit and watch while saying if He created all this extraordinary stuff how cool do I have to be to Him? Like he knows the hairs on my head, which he probably has to count daily because I lose hair like crazy haha! He knows my name and hand knit me together in my mommas tummy. So keep praying for that, let Him show you how He sees you and when He does… baby live like that. Because what He is showing you is who you were literally created to be. What he shows you is your identity don’t lose that view and show your littles to pray that way. Show them to see themselves that way, and to live like that. We’ll talk tomorrow again. Tomorrow you’ll be at the beach admiring how your littles enjoy creation and how your creator shows off. Muah! I love you,

Love Ali.